Have you ever experienced a time where you're just so overwhelmed with emotions, that you have no idea what you're feeling, and it makes you feel very sucky..I did..and it sucks cause i have no idea whats causing it..i was glad that you were there when i just needed assurance and a hug and when you just held me..i just wish it would not end..though you wouldnt understand what was happening..i didnt either..haha..but yea..it felt reassuring that everything would be fine..

every morning for the past few months since delifrance opened in TTSH..its been a very nostalgic 5 sec walk-pass feeling..it brought me back to when i was in sec 3..where my 3 very good friends and I worked part time just for exposure and experience..the smell of freshly baked baguettes and croissants.. how we always bullied our manager to let us drink the soup especially when its clam chowder..how we ate whatever we wanted and not get scolding..how we laughed among ourselves at the way people pronounced baguettes as "peh quek" or croissants as "croy sants".. how we bitched about annoying customers..how we packed all the food home at the end of the day cause pastries cant be kept overnight..it was fun..and every morning..when i walk past..i'd reminise..

yesterday..i caught sight of something..something that i felt has been missing since...i was walking..and there..infront of me..were 2 girls..they must have been best of friends by their actions...i saw the way they walked...they held hands..happily chatting away..oblivious to their surroundings..as if the world were just the 2 of them...and then it struck me...what happened?? I used to have that with you..but something bad happened..could be you..could be me..we'd never really know till we speak to each other again...I'd really missed the times when we'd just go out..sit at a cafe with a drink and just talk...talk about anything and everything..shared almost everything..how you'd know not to message me before 11am on saturdays for i'll still be asleep..how when we had something bothering us..we could juz call and spend hours talking..honestly...i missed those times...

one incident happened recently..and I was green with envy...i told you that..and you said.."dont be stupid lar..i can be your best friend too k" ..and when you cancelled out on me..I didnt feel sad..cause i knew how you felt..and i wouldnt want you to experience what i had..you guys have like the best friendship i'd known..so yea..we can always go out another day..but you can never find a best friend overnight yea!

anyway..the above refers to like 3 different people..thats why it seems so random and..i dont know what else..but yea..after waking up and typing this...i kinda figured out why i had that kinda whirlwind of emotions...

oh wells..on a lighter note..m leaving for HK in 8 days..and i havent changed money yet..and i'm so excited coz the car's gonna be mine for the whole weekend!! parents are flying off to macau..so i dont have to worry about coming home late (actually..i never really had to worry about that..never had curfews..haha)