I'm at work..supposedly workin..but then again..its freakin 4 in the morning which means technically..theres totally nthg to do..n the com here sucks..it takes ages to load n the keyboard is juz..pathetic..wierd considering the fact tt hospital makes alot of money..*wonder whr it all goes too*..m done w a bk i bought on wed...by an author recommended by gen sum time back..lisa gardner's hide..real gd bk..yes..i spent my nite duty readin..*fellow collegues find it madness..coz they claim its too taxin on the eyes at 1 in the morn...*



so anyway..a gd fren's dad juz passed away...quite sudden in a way tt..the illness was found out pretty late therefore prognosis wasnt gd for him..sigh..at times like these..wad exactly are the right words to say to a 15 yr old?? its hard knowing tt they were pretty close...sigh..hopefully he'll cope..



its during times like these when i start to think..yea..when i was younger..i used to complain endlessly abt how controlling my parents are.. how unfair they were when they wldnt gif us the thing tt we wanted *at tt time..those things were probably more of a want than a necessity*..how we always complained to our peers how much we hated our parents for the incessant naggings and when they disallow us to go out with frens or stay out late..we throw a fit..but then..thinking abt it...if it werent for them acting this way..i prob wldnt know wad my future holds for me..yea..i still do get irritated by my mom's constant nagging but its for my own gd i guess...mothers always nows best..



n seeing this happening to a few frens(losing of parents) i often wonder..wad wld i do if i were in their shoes?? its a very terrifying thot..n workin in a place tt deals w death ever so often dosen really help much..losing a granparent definitely is a diff feeling frm losing aparent i guess...the pain is more.. :( one thing i hate abt my job...i get envious..when i see grandchildren of older patients coming to visit ..it brings memories of my gramps..i had always dreamed tt when i grow older..start working..i'd gif her allowances..buy her birds nest n all..visit her n she'd always cook my bros n my fave century egg porridge..but then..all tt dreams shattered when she decided to gif up living..she missed her soul mate..grampa left only a mth..n then..she felt lonely i guess..din wana live on..sigh...happen to view my bro's blog in frenster..n wad i saw brought tears to my eyes..a dedication to my granma on her bday...it occured to me..tt behind his facade..he missed her too..obviously since she raised him...



okok..enough of being depressed (prob coz we ad a collapse case ytd nite..n juz seein my staff desperately tryin to revive da person brought back memories..) so i met up w dear daphne aft she MIA-ed frm the ward..updated her on the ward's going-ons as well as latest ward gossips..hahaha..bought donuts frm donut factory...yummy...though i still think krispy kreme n dunkin donuts r still da best..