i'm alone at hme!! whole family's over in KL...din wana go coz..i wanted sum quiet time alone...n it was a small mistake..coz i'm afraid..haha..serious..my hse is big n really echo-y..havin this alone time has got me thinking..abt alot of stuff tt happened...in a few days time..its my granma's first yr anniversary...how time flies...i always rmb..when my parents go overseas..n if only me or me n my bros r alone at hme..she'd always call at 10pm sharp..to make sure every1 is at hme n safe...during lunch n wad not..she'd always call n checkup on us...silently..i was hoping to hear the phone ring..n hear my granma on the other line..but i noe..its impossible..i guess..i really still cnt get over her death...esp when i witnessed her collapse, the emergency trolley being pushed in..doctors desperately trying to revive her...these images still fresh in my mind no matter how i try to forget...

okok..pple will think i'm goin mad...but if i was given a chance to turn back time...i'd learn to cherish every1 ard me...

so anyways..had a cup of soya bean for the day!! tried to eat maggi mee...but but but..i ended up throwing it away after taking a few mouthfuls...oh wells.. went to ttsh today..collected my uniforms...I DUN WANA START WORK!!! ..tml or rather later..goin for medical check up in the morn...then..its back hme n more hse chores..bleah...