in sch now..really pathetic la..later got 6 hrs break @$#%..so anyways...here's some random(ok mayb not so random) thots.....

how do u tell sum1 tt u've been hurt by her actions?? with out hurting her as well?? n our frenship?? i mean its like..i had a talk wif a fren..n she said this:" haf u ever talked to her abt it??" my reply..No..Y? i dunno..i mean..i've had enough of it already...but i guess i always think of how others will feel instead of my own feelings?? i mean its like..i did tell u abt him n afew wks later..u came n tell me u like him..so wad...does my words juz fall upon deaf ears? or r my words juz so insignificant to u?? ur actions now..to many outsiders..esp on NYE..was atrocious...i recieved feedbacks tt i'm so ashamed off!! stuff like..no dignity..n my gosh..how cheap can she get...i mean...i didnt noe how to ans or fight back for u anymore..coz i suddenly dunno u anymore...its like we're "close" but not like b4...n pple do ask me..y do i even bother holding on to this frenship..y do i wana make myself get hurt by u again?! my reason...hoping tt she'd noe wad she's doin is wrong...but i guess..she'll nv noe...sigh...

and to another person...hey..its not like i purposely forgot abt ur bday...fuck man..i was fuckin busy...n if u wana condem me coz of tt..fuck..tts wayyy childish..n i seriously dun gif a damn abt it...even if u din wish me on mine..i wldnt care..coz its not as if i keep a freakin checklist of names n slowly check off da names of those who wished me or gaf me things tt they promised...n nor do i condem those hu dun wish me n dun gif me wad they poromised...man..seriously!!

gosh...GOD..i really need u to point me in da rite direction!! i mean..i dun even noe hu my real frens anymore!! da ones whom i always go out with for long time already but always ending up hurt by them...or those tt i only meet up occassionally but nv hurt me ...?? seriously..i'm starting to lose faith