i'm so tired!! both physically n mentally!! played mahjong last nite wif my bros n my elder bro's gf..break even..yeah...no win no lose for me...oh ya..

JASMINE YEO MEI LUAN!!! (if i rmb correctly..tts ur chi name rite?) WELCOME BACK HOME DEAR COUSIN!!..

haha..i'm mad..so anyway..aft a looong nite of mahjong..i had ta pry myself outta bed to attend mass!!..not tt i find it a chore to go church..juz tt i'm really exhausted...so aft amss..attended da stupid soccer meeting for my bro n his team as those shit-heads enjoy their beauty slp...

well...sch hasnt been any diff frm da past wks...it juz sucks knowing tt u din do anything yet sum1 is giving u da cold shoulders coz u're close to ant fren..wad da hell..i juz dun get it seriously..sigh...i wish everything was juz turn out rite..its like..everything has been goin down hill since mu birthday...sucks la

anyways...everytime i go out now..i see old pple...i noe its not an uncommon sight ..but..i juz feel a sense of loss..i lost both my paternal n maternal grandparents...and wen i see other children wif their grandparents...i feel a tinge of sadness n jealousy...i miss my gran ma loads esp..y..coz my grandad was a stroke patient therefore he cld not tok..so..ya...i miss her loads..there times wen i'm really sad like with all this shittified probs..n then i think of how suddenly she left us..i cnt stand it..i juz break down...

fuck..i hate this life...