firstly... Sorry vonne, cass n zena tt i din go back to IJ wif u guys!! we'll meet again once cherylan finishes her exams aights....really sorry!!! owe u guys 1...

alrite..hadta go back to sch for proj da past wk...gosh..fina yr n so many projs..itink i mite juz die...help!!! there's juz tooo many modules!!! gosh...

juz got back frm dinner at cartel...so much has changed...i miss da old cartel..but then again..wads life w/o changes rite...gd or bad..its still a change...had grilled dory fish...okok...again..i failed to go to swensens n eat my ice-cream..bummer...oh wells...ok..i for 1..cnt believe i juz went grocery shoppin on my own..i mean..w/o parents..i was actually plannin wad to cook for lunch tml?!?! gosh..my mom sounded shocked wen i called her n ask her abt wads gd to put inside macaroni...kinda missed da saturdays lunch at granma's place whr she cooked my fave chicken macaroni or century egg porridge whenever she knew me n my bros were goin down for a visit...haiz

i need to keep myself occupied!!!..coz whenever i'm in da bus on da way hme or juz alone for tt matter..vivid images of the doc resuscitating(doin CPR) on my granma juz floods my mind...it cld b bcoz i was alone at tt time...watchin helplessly as they tried to save her...n i cld rmb..wen i went to da ICU everyday aft attachment..juz to see her gettin bad to worse..i cnt seem to let her go...as long as i'm alone..these memories juz come..pple say to try n let her go..i cnt..its juz too sudden for me...its like...haiz..i haf no idea how to explain...its soon gonna b 3 mths since my granpa left..n 2 mths since my granma left...