fuck blogger..i juz typed a freakin long entry...n sumthing happened n it did not appear....&*#%&...

anyways...i won $9 at mahjong ytd...was at my granparent's place till 4 am...i mean..ya...thy're no longer thr..but we went thr to like settle her stuff n all..like jewelleries..yupyup...my aunty gaf them out..asked us to choose wad we want as keepsakes...so ya..got sum$$ too..enuff to last me the mth...hey..my granparents aint sum rich millionaire alright!!

so anyway...lotsa tings haf happened...ya..its not ur fault tt he likes u back..but still..u said tt u really cherish our frenship..but frens dun do wad u did to me..so said our frenship was impt..n it meant alot to u..it did to me as well..but then..u knew how i felt abt him..yet u chose to go ahead tif it...if our frenship did mean so much..u sld not haf done it in da first place..i noe it aint possible btw himn me..but still.if it were other gals...i wldnt gif a fuck abt it...but it had to be u..da 1 person i TRUSTED so much...

i admit..i miss da times whr we wld mit up after sch juz bcoz we wanted to...every wed at starbucks...drinkin our choc cream...eating choc muffin/potato salad...cartel/pastamania luch aft mass every sun...cartel breakfast b4 every sentosa outing...mindless chatter n gossips..how we were there for each other wen we were down...how we cld complete each other's sentences...or how we cld "read" each other's thots juz by lookin at expressions...how pple tried to not put us on da same shift wen we were workin juz bcoz we talked to much..how we knew wen either party was sad n wad cld b done to cheer either of us up..

i too m in a position now wen i really need sum1 thr for me..thr's juz so many things i wana tell u...somany things tt i wana share wif u..but everytime i reach out to type tt msg on my fone...i juz back out...n erase thos msges...y..coz i dunno wad to do..

pple say god placed us here for a reason..wads mine?? to experience heartaches n loss?? to b a lonesome person?!?! i haf frens...but they're not like u...haiz..i really dunno wad to do..i tink i shall juz retreat into my on solitary world.....