*yawns* woke up n like went ta sch ta do sum research wif jac..well..as u can guess..wasnt fruitful..oh wells...
aft tt went ta gen's place..got a little help frm her wif tt bloddy essay...yea..i reached da 800 word mark already..tink i shall stay up ta complete it...gonna skip tml's first lect of da day...haha...lazy la.....newaes..aft tt..met leno n lil fer lunch..went ta seoul garden..we were like starin at da grp of gals seated nxt ta us..gosh..their appetite is enormous kaes!!! nv in my life haf i seen gals eat sooo much!!!..we started tokin abt them..n like aft a while..was like stoning la..n at da same time..i overheard them tokin abt us..oh wells..dun gif a damn newaes...
sum how along da way ta cine..my mood went frm oh-so-happy to..bleah...super dreary...well..lil kip tellin mi tt he's in town too..like WADEVA!! but tt wasnt wad pulled my mood down..sigh...juz sum personal stuff i guess...sheesh..i din even haf da mood ta play pool!!
was really glum n all..well..lil kip askin mi..but i said i was fine..but guess sayin tt i'm fine wld mean lying to myself...but well..dun wana say much..sittin thr n starin inta blank space..n thinkin...gosh..i feel so..sigh.. y do i always hide wad i'm feeling? my anger..my hurt..its all hidden..embedded in my heart..unable to be released..is it coz i'm afraid tt my frens wun understand?? sigh..y do i always hafta act happy when i noe i'm not..y do i always try ta put up a front..when i noe its not gonna help...sigh...i dunno..all i noe is tt i was super tempted ta juz walk out n go sumwhr whr i can juz sit n cry fer hrs...at least then..wadeva shitty feelings i haf inside wld prob juz flow out freely..rather than sittin thr..tryin hard ta hold back those tears......

Look at me
You may think you see
Who I really am
But you'll never know me
Every day It's as if I play a part
Now I see If I wear a mask
I can fool the world
But I cannot fool my heart

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

I am now
In a world where
I Have to hide my heart
And what I believe in
But somehow
I will show the world
What's inside my heart
And be loved for who I am

Who is that girl I see
Staring straight back at me?
Why is my reflection
Someone I don't know?
Must I pretend that
I'm Someone else for all time?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?

There's a heart that must be
Free to fly
That burns with a need to know
The reason why

Why must we all conceal
What we think, how we feel?
Must there be a secret me
I'm forced to hide?
I won't pretend that
I'm Someone else for all time
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?
When will my reflection show
Who I am inside?